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To The Moms Fighting All The Battles That No One Sees

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I sat with a friend tonight at dinner as she shared some struggles she’s been dealing with. It was the first time in months we’ve been able to catch up, besides the occasional text message check-ins that busy friends who care about each other, do.

As I listened to her talk about the trial she’s currently going through with one of her kids, I was amazed. I was amazed at her strength. Amazed at her commitment to motherhood. Amazed at the things she was willing to do to fight, and advocate for her child. I was thinking – I don’t know if I could fight that battle like she is every day. She is such a good mom. 

And, most people wouldn’t even know she’s going through a major battle just looking at her. People that pass her in the grocery store probably don’t know the sleepless nights she’s had, or the constant battles she’s been fighting in her own home. Maybe they see a tired, frazzled looking woman at the grocery store, or one that looks perfectly together.

Every day, we fight battles as mothers that no one sees.

And, it’s a beautiful thing if you stop to think about it.

So, to the mother reading this, that’s fighting her own battle right now – I see you.

I see your struggles to keep it together when the toddler is giving you his 15th battle of wills for the day.

I see you, the mama, who fights at IEP meetings for her special needs child and goes through paperwork, and meetings that the mama who has a neurotypical child would never dream of having to do just to send her kid to school.

I am talking to you – the mom with mental illness. The one who takes a pill every day to be there for her kids. To be strong. To fight. And, to be the mom that she never had.

I know there are moms that fight battles of chronic illness. They suffer through physical pain while doing a physically demanding job day in and day out.

I see the mom that tries so hard and feels like she’s failing because she’s a perfectionist, and wants to get it just right. The battle she fights is with herself. To keep up. To constantly be doing better than she did the day before.

There are moms that fight to be both parents for their kids, and have the heartache of explaining why the other half isn’t there. They suffer in silence when their child asks about the other parent and they have no answers. They struggle to put a meal on the table, and no one even knows about it.

Moms that fight a defiant child, or even just a strong willed one. You battle every day to find the balance between giving in to the child with a strong personality that you love fiercely, and teaching them that no, they can’t have everything they want and won’t always get their way.

I see you, the mom who battles every day trying to balance it all. Be it all. And, have it all.

I see the mom that battles for self-control with her weight, and the ones that battle to give self-esteem to her own kids when she doesn’t feel like she has any of her own.

There are moms that struggle to not give up on the kid that the world has already given up on.

And, there are moms that have empty arms. That haven’t gotten to hold their babies for longer than a few hours, days, or weeks. I see the moms that have yet to hold a baby at all of their own, but they long for it in a way that already makes them a mother.

We all fight our battles. Often in silence. Sometimes alone. But, we fight them anyway.

Maybe you’re fighting one right now. One that you don’t dare share with even a close friend for fear of breaking down or being judged. Or worse – for feeling like a bad mother because you complain a little about how hard your battle is.

So if you’re fighting right now – you’re not alone. And, you’re a good mom.

We’re all fighting. We’re all trying. We’re all battling something. You’re a good mom. And, all that fighting and battling means something even when it doesn’t feel like you’re making any headway.

Mothers are fighters. The beautiful thing is, I believe we’ve been given the jobs that we were cut out for, even when we feel like there is no way we can fight another day.

Because somehow we do. That’s what moms do. We fight. We advocate. We don’t give up. We battle within ourselves, and outside ourselves.

Because moms fight for their kids. They keep going even when it feels impossible. They are willing to do the hard stuff that breaks their hearts into millions of pieces.

Because they know all the quiet (and not so quiet) battles in the world are worth it. Because motherhood is worth it. Every last bit.

Meredith Ethington is a writer and a mom to three, trying to help her kids understand sarcasm and her need for personal space. Meredith’s debut parenting book, Mom Life: Perfection Pending, provides an uplifting yet realistic look at all that is expected of moms in the 21st century and is now available on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and at DeseretBook. She proudly writes for many of her favorite parenting sites, including Scary Mommy, Babble, Momtastic, and on her own blog. Follow her on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter where she loves to laugh at herself and admit that while parenting is the best thing ever, it’s also the hardest job on earth.


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  1. Kristy says

    May 31, 2018 at 8:03 am

    As a homeschooling sahm of a very independent girl, 16 (????) & a gentle boy, 14 with special needs some days I kinda feel like one of those clowns doing that weird plate thing. Where they balance them on poles, and have to run around and keep them all spinning. Only mine keep crashing down around me. *add dinnerware to shopping list. These little tidbits are always a wonderful reminder that I’m exactly where I need to be. And I was put here on purpose. These are my go to discouragement busters.

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    • JILL says

      January 18, 2019 at 11:36 am

      I homeschooled for 2 years and felt exactly as you describe!

      Reply
  2. Tara says

    November 20, 2018 at 10:47 am

    This article resignates with me in soooo many ways. Thank you ! Thank you ! Thank you !

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  3. Kathy says

    November 21, 2018 at 6:35 am

    Thank you. I’m a 50+ parent of a 30+ daughter Still fighting battles I can’t understand & the world doesn’t see. I know this is more focused for younger kids but I so needed it. Is the mom you just never stop trying & giving up is not an option. ❤️

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    • Kim says

      January 8, 2020 at 7:07 pm

      I’m right there with you. Still fighting battles that never end. Wondering why, feeling like the only one though I know I’m not. You are not alone.

      Reply
  4. Emily says

    November 21, 2018 at 10:59 pm

    I just have to talk you how blessed I was by this post. I needed the encouragement and reality check. It also made me realize how many amazing women I’m surrounded by. We really were created as warriors.

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    • Meredith says

      November 24, 2018 at 9:34 am

      I’m so glad it helped you. It’s one of my favorite things I’ve written. 🙂

      Reply
  5. Diana says

    November 28, 2018 at 10:04 pm

    Thank you! I just came across your beautiful article and it made my heart warm.

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  6. Lisa says

    August 17, 2019 at 10:41 am

    This article touched my heart. I am a mom who has a debilitating genetic connective tissue disorder and I’m mostly is in a wheelchair. I’m married to a major crimes detective who is never home, and have no family or support system nearby. Both of my kids have inherited the condition causing their own host of health problems, and I feel guilty every day that I gave these beautiful kids this awful disease. So I get up even though the pain is far surpassing anything I can describe. I fight the fight to get them ready and to school every day. I fight for 504’s and IEP’s and with insurance companies and doctors and specialists to get their medications and appointments. I make sure they have their homework done, even through the tears of a kid with severe ADHD trying to focus on long division breaks my heart again. I go to bed most nights crying and feeling like I am failing and then I get up and do it again. I’m lonely, I’m scared and I don’t feel like I have any control over the situation. When they hug me or give me a goodnight kiss I know every bit of it is worth it and I will do it every single day as long as I am on this earth!

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  7. Kylie says

    August 17, 2019 at 9:31 pm

    I’m that Mum with chronic illness – my teenagers have never known me as a healthy person. I had to adapt how I was there for them. It’s affected both of them deeply. I just hope one day they will know how much I love them, and that I did the best I could for them.

    My 14yo son is high functioning autistic, so we’ve had an extra battle esp through his schooling.

    Motherhood is hard. We all do our best, and even if they don’t understand it now, our children realise in time that we care for and love them.

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  8. Tiffany W. says

    January 7, 2020 at 7:46 pm

    This article provided me some peace to some of my battles that no one sees. Thank you for posting

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  9. Lauren says

    January 9, 2020 at 11:27 pm

    I really needed to hear this today…I fought tears all day as yet another day anxiety kept my 14 yr old daughter from attending school. Family telling me I have to “do something “ as if I haven’t tried about everything. Anxiety is with out logic and unpredictable. I’m just trying to keep her alive through he low points. So judged by others. Exhausted.

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    • Sonje says

      June 14, 2021 at 8:43 pm

      I completely understand this.

      Reply
  10. Toni says

    February 13, 2020 at 1:39 am

    Thank you for this article!

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